He's...Engaged?

The other morning I opened my Facebook, mindlessly scrolled through videos of people’s pets doing tricks and people’s party photos from the evening before. And that’s when I saw it…

"Congrats on your engagement! I’m sooooo happy for you too!!!"

The Ex-Fiance was engaged.

It’s tough when your ex gets hitched with the person he starting dating just weeks after you. So was I suffering from a bruised ego considering he asked her three years into it versus the four and a half it took with me? Yes. Did I do a quick Facebook stalk to see if I could get a glimpse of the ring? Absofuckinglutely.

I was acting like a crazy woman.

I had to get some perspective. I was confined to suburban depots rather than urban boutiques and most importantly, I wasn’t in love. My life was monotonous and I fear monotony as much as I fear Walmart or Ikea on a Sunday afternoon. So why care and what really is the point of asking, what if?

So, I went into the kitchen to emotionally eating, the right way.

SWEET & SAVOURY STUFFED PORTOBELLOS
4 large portobellos
2 packages herbed goat cheese
1 small package of black mission figs
1 bunch fresh spinach.
1/4 cup walnuts chopped
1/4 cup pecans chopped
1 red onion minced
4 garlic cloves minced
1 tbsp honey
Panko crumbs as topping
Salt & pepper
Pinch of chili flakes

Preheat oven to 350.

Sautee onions and garlic until caramelized. Set aside.

Blanch spinach, drain excess water and chop fine. Place into a large mixing bowl with 2 packages of goat cheese, onions, garlic, nuts (but leave some aside for topping), chilli flakes, honey and salt. Gently fold in figs.

With a damp cloth brush mushrooms to remove dirt. Place on a parchment paper baking sheet and begin to fill with mixture and top with panko crumbs and left over nuts. Place in oven for 10-15 minutes until panko nut mixture browns.

In Chinese Medicine mushrooms have a lot of therapeutic benefits including boosting the immune system. Goat cheese is also easier to digest than regular dairy due to its smaller molecular size. Its creamy taste is yin-building and may help to calm those with an overactive, racing mind. Perfect!

As for the engagement? I’m happy for him. As for me? I have The Gentleman, and despite our growing pains, we’re doing great. I have Sexy Food Therapy that never would have existed had I not have left the Ex-Fiancé. So instead of looking back and wondering what if, look forward, and you’ll be able to realize that it all happened for a reason.

And, looking back to blue light specials and Swedish meat balls, it becomes clear as day…yes, we were really never meant to be.